Thursday, May 6, 2010
Ten Years Ago
I was driving in Cedar Rapids the other day when I caught myself saying to my 4 yr. old, "There's the cemetery where your dad and I had our wedding photos taken."
I paused, thinking about what an odd thing that is to say ... but we did ... the cemetery was right behind Christ Episcopal Church ... there were lots of trees and some flowers .. it was and is a bit odd I will admit (and if you look in the photos ... well ... there are a few flat stones that I know what they are even if nobody else does!) I wonder sometimes if God had a purpose for that little oddity. Maybe something to keep me looking ahead to a time even more perfect. But on that day and at that time it was a bit like salt in an extremely open wound. We had been planning this wedding for a year and a half ... every detail and dream ... and then 5 months before the anticipated day, my father died suddenly of a massive heart attack while playing tennis (his favorite sport.) It rocked my world to say the least. And in some ways our wedding day was the final day of my dad's funeral for our family. It was a happy day, don't get me wrong. But in unspoken ways it was hard. Hard on my mom and my siblings, hard on me and even on Jeff as he lost his own father when he was only 15 to cancer ... and now his soon-to-be father-in-law. It was unspoken, but I know we all felt it. It was that day that we had planned for so long (I was not a young bride btw, my parents had been looking forward to this for a LONG time and probably thought it'd never come!) And my dad was supposed to walk me down the aisle and give me away to Jeff. It was supposed to be a storybook day. The day every girl dreams of. But, that wasn't the plan.
Ten Years Ago today ... at three o'clock in the afternoon ... on a gorgeous Spring day, my brother walked me down the aisle. Our families were there with us as we said "I do" and became one. It was Jeff and me and God. It was a beautiful day and one that I will remember forever.
So many days have come and gone, so many memories have been written in the last 10 years and I pray for so many more yet to come. Thank you Sweetpea for every one of them! Some days are easy and fun. Some are hard and painful as we both grow. But God has matched us together to sharpen the other through sharing our strengths and weaknesses. And I Love you!
I cannot wait until we are united with our fathers again in Heaven at our Heavenly Father's wedding banquet table. It will be a celebration like no other. But in the in between time, there is so much to do. I am so glad that I am blessed to journey on this road together with you Jeff. The last 10 years have flown by and it amazes me all the blessings that have poured over us. I give thanks to God for his abundant love for us!